"Help me tell the truth. You see, that's all I'm trying to do is tell the truth..."

Somewhere in the middle of Tennessee, on a cold night where the sky was blacker than any leather-bound Bible, my life changed forever. I watched my breath form in the air as I gasped when God lit the fire that caused everything in my life to wither, shrink, blacken, and fall off of me. I rediscovered peace, love, joy, forgiveness, and I saw for a split-second the slightest hint of Heaven. Five days removed from the Winter Solstice, I borrowed a title from a favorite album of mine and dubbed this "The Darkest Night of the Year." The third week of December will forever own this title.


Since that day, I have like clockwork returned to this pen and this paper and scrawled down the latest things running around inside my head. Every solstice and every equinox. When Spring brings and when Summer ends. When lower lights are burning and when the sun shines brightly. Sometimes I come armed with a dissertation about The Way Things Should Be and sometimes I come like a beggar pleading for words to fall into my hands so that somehow I might look smart.


I hope these are more than just narcissistic ramblings made to give me the appearance of some skilled writer (which I'm not.) I want these writings to be a dirt trail, a path blazed back down the mountain as I climb upward. A trail of crumbs back to some distant place. I don't plan to look for that distant place ever again, but it's nice to see that I've made some progress when some days I feel so far from Heaven that no plane ticket could even get me onto the same continent. This is a celebration of a great work that amazingly is still a work in progress.


Read if you'd like, but please, tread lightly. I hope these are not too earnest and maybe, just maybe they will give you hints as you discover the path laid out for you.



 
Apr 20, 2005 - Less Than Love
Mar 28, 2005 - And So It Goes
Feb. 23, 2005 - Uneasy Lies the Head of the Confidence Man
Feb. 17, 2005 - The Staggering Gods
Feb. 9, 2005 - Divine Instant
Feb. 2, 2005 - (It's The Eighties So Where's Our) Rocket Packs?
Jan. 26, 2005 - The Unattainable Earth
Jan. 19, 2005 - The Shape of Air
Dec 17, 2004 - Fighting For Joy on the Darkest Night of the Year
Nov 29, 2004 - Random, Party of One, Your Table Is Ready
Nov 1, 2004 - On Turning Thirty (The Joke's On Me)
Oct. 12, 2004 - A Caedmon's Call Weekend
Sept 27, 2004 - What to do when you are on Plan "N"
Sept 24, 2004 - Tracing the past through Starbucks
Aug. 12, 2004 - Reviewing the Olympic Saga
July 7, 2004 - Notes from Cornerstone 2004
June 22, 2004 - The Sweatiest Wedding Ever
May 31, 2004 - But if those days came back, I would miss you so much more
Mar 27, 2004 - I have become that which I mock.
Nov 21, 2003 - Invitation to a Christmas Party
Oct 23, 2003 - The Great Divorce
Jul 1, 2003 - My Top 15 Rock Concerts
Jun 14, 2003 - On Friends And Worship
Dec 22, 2002 - Helpless on The Darkest Night of the Year
Oct 14, 2002 - He taught me to love sports.
Sept 11, 2002 - Miracles after September 11
Jul 22, 2002 - Cornerstone as a couple
Dec 22, 2001 - The Darkest Night of The Year in Cincinnati
Jul 2-7, 2001 - A Surprise Trip to the Farm
Jul 3, 2001 - Vinings #1: Blessed or Broken?
Mar 15, 2001 - Introduction To The Vinings Notes
Jan 23, 2001 - Wedding Vows on the Darkest Night of the Year
Oct 2, 2000 - Reflections on a Fairpoint Diary
Jul 3-9, 2000 - Back to the Farm
May 5, 2000 - The End of the Beginning
Dec 22, 1999 - Moonlight on the Darkest Night of the Year
Nov 5, 1999 - Happy Birthday and All That Jazz
Jul 20, 1999 - My 40 Acres
Apr 4, 1999 - Nothing Else Mattered
Dec 22, 1998 - Return to the Darkest Night of the Year
Sep 20, 1998 - From the Top of a Mountain
Jul 4, 1998 - Fireworks
Jun 30, 1998 - Six Days in the North
Mar 21, 1998 - Equinox
Dec 16, 1997 - The Darkest Night of the Year

 
 
 
Last Updated: December 22, 2002