"Help me tell the truth. You see, that's all I'm trying to do is tell the
truth..."
Somewhere in the middle of Tennessee, on a cold night where the sky was
blacker than any leather-bound Bible, my life changed forever. I watched
my breath form in the air as I gasped when God lit the fire that caused
everything in my life to wither, shrink, blacken, and fall off of me. I
rediscovered peace, love, joy, forgiveness, and I saw for a split-second
the slightest hint of Heaven. Five days removed from the Winter Solstice,
I borrowed a title from a favorite album of mine and dubbed this "The Darkest
Night of the Year." The third week of December will forever own this title.
Since that day, I have like clockwork returned to this pen and this
paper and scrawled down the latest things running around inside my head.
Every solstice and every equinox. When Spring brings and when Summer ends.
When lower lights are burning and when the sun shines brightly. Sometimes
I come armed with a dissertation about The Way Things Should Be and sometimes
I come like a beggar pleading for words to fall into my hands so that somehow
I might look smart.
I hope these are more than just narcissistic ramblings made to give
me the appearance of some skilled writer (which I'm not.) I want these
writings to be a dirt trail, a path blazed back down the mountain as I
climb upward. A trail of crumbs back to some distant place. I don't plan
to look for that distant place ever again, but it's nice to see that I've
made some progress when some days I feel so far from Heaven that no plane
ticket could even get me onto the same continent. This is a celebration
of a great work that amazingly is still a work in progress.
Read if you'd like, but please, tread lightly. I hope these are not
too earnest and maybe, just maybe they will give you hints as you discover
the path laid out for you.
Apr 20, 2005 - |
Less Than Love |
Mar 28, 2005 - |
And So It Goes |
Feb. 23, 2005 - |
Uneasy Lies the Head of the Confidence Man |
Feb. 17, 2005 - |
The Staggering Gods |
Feb. 9, 2005 - |
Divine Instant |
Feb. 2, 2005 - |
(It's The Eighties So Where's Our) Rocket Packs? |
Jan. 26, 2005 - |
The Unattainable Earth |
Jan. 19, 2005 - |
The Shape of Air |
Dec 17, 2004 - |
Fighting For Joy on the Darkest Night of the Year |
Nov 29, 2004 - |
Random, Party of One, Your Table Is Ready |
Nov 1, 2004 - |
On Turning Thirty (The Joke's On Me) |
Oct. 12, 2004 - |
A Caedmon's Call Weekend |
Sept 27, 2004 - |
What to do when you are on Plan "N" |
Sept 24, 2004 - |
Tracing the past through Starbucks |
Aug. 12, 2004 - |
Reviewing the Olympic Saga |
July 7, 2004 - |
Notes from Cornerstone 2004 |
June 22, 2004 - |
The Sweatiest Wedding Ever |
May 31, 2004 - |
But if those days came back, I would miss you
so much more |
Mar 27, 2004 - |
I have become that which I mock. |
Nov 21, 2003 - |
Invitation to a Christmas Party |
Oct 23, 2003 - |
The Great Divorce |
Jul 1, 2003 - |
My Top 15 Rock Concerts |
Jun 14, 2003 - |
On Friends And Worship |
Dec 22, 2002 - |
Helpless on The Darkest Night of the Year |
Oct 14, 2002 - |
He taught me to love sports. |
Sept 11, 2002 - |
Miracles after September 11 |
Jul 22, 2002 - |
Cornerstone as a couple |
Dec 22, 2001 - |
The Darkest Night of The Year in Cincinnati |
Jul 2-7, 2001 - |
A Surprise Trip to the Farm |
Jul 3, 2001 - |
Vinings #1: Blessed or Broken? |
Mar 15, 2001 - |
Introduction To The Vinings Notes |
Jan 23, 2001 - |
Wedding Vows on the Darkest Night of the Year |
Oct 2, 2000 - |
Reflections on a Fairpoint Diary |
Jul 3-9, 2000 - |
Back to the Farm |
May 5, 2000 - |
The End of the Beginning |
Dec 22, 1999 - |
Moonlight on the Darkest Night of the Year |
Nov 5, 1999 - |
Happy Birthday and All That Jazz |
Jul 20, 1999 - |
My 40 Acres |
Apr 4, 1999 - |
Nothing Else Mattered |
Dec 22, 1998 - |
Return to the Darkest Night of the Year |
Sep 20, 1998 - |
From the Top of a Mountain |
Jul 4, 1998 - |
Fireworks |
Jun 30, 1998 - |
Six Days in the North |
Mar 21, 1998 - |
Equinox |
Dec 16, 1997 - |
The Darkest Night of the Year |
Last Updated: December 22, 2002