• Eat better and exercise more. Of course. Like everyone. But I don’t want to start some crash diet in January and give up in a couple of weeks or kill myself in some grueling workout only to give up by the end of the month. I want to plan to run in events like Pi Mile at Georgia Tech and The Peachtree Road Race and train for them. I want to cut out bad eating habits and while I don’t need to lose a ton of weight, I wouldn’t mind shedding some pounds so I’ve got some milestones in place for the year.
• Spend less time trying to prevent negative events and enjoy positive events more often. Part of my job is trying to prevent disasters and planning contingency plans in the event of a disaster with applications. While that’s fine for work, it doesn’t translate as well at home. When I spend all my time trying to figure out how to prevent a tantrum, I don’t enjoy the time that my children are actually happy. When things go wrong, I want to see that as an opportunity to step up and achieve something unexpected instead of being disappointed that my plans didn’t go like I wanted.
• Compliment people more. Especially parents. I know how much it means to me when I’m struggling with the girls when someone says, “you are doing a great job. They are good girls.” We spend so much time comparing our children with others and touting our parenting techniques or whining about how hard it is to be a parent that we forget to tell each other, “you are working really hard and you should be proud of your children.”
• Spend more time outside. Take the girls to the playground. Go for walks alone in the woods. Run. Don’t let summer heat be an excuse to not sweat a little bit.

Some of these goals have tangible results and others are a little less concrete. At the end of the year, I’ll look back and see how I did.

One glaring omission from the list Adele’s 21 which is probably on everyone’s list. I do like what I’ve heard from the album. Adriene has it but I keep forgetting to borrow it from her. With that said, on to my picks with the average stages included:

The Top 5
The Violet Burning – The Story Of Our Lives (Avg Rating 3.74)
This collection is massive, stunning, raw, and powerful. Sometimes the songs blend together and it really requires a lot of attention span to make it through all three albums but there really are very few weak links and that’s something to be said about a collection of 34 songs. Michael Pritzl teased us with saying there would “not be one more Violet Burning album” when in reality there were three, telling a complete story arc. Favorite tracks: “Imminent Collapse”, “Breakdown”, “Finest Hour”

Quiet Science – Dark Words on Dark Wings – (Avg rating 3.7)
This one was a surprise but it’s well deserved. I didn’t have big expectations for this sophomore effort from the space rock group from central Florida, their first album was good but I felt they still were untapped potential. Potential tapped. Nice hooks and insightful lyrics. Favorite tracks: “The Dust Storm”, “Speak To The Dark”

Over the Rhine – The Long Surrender – (Avg rating 3.53)
I got the pre-release in 2010 and said I’d save this for the 2011 list, so here it is. This is a smoldering slow burn of an album pondering deep topics like aging, marital fidelity, and learning to let go. Joe Henry’s production really adds to the songs. Many of the songs didn’t impress me when I heard them as demos, but the finished products sound great. Favorite tracks: “Rave On”, “The King Knows How”, “Days Like This”, “All My Favorite People”

Gungor – Beautiful Things – (Avg Rating: 3.46)
I’ve almost given up on “Christian music” as a genre, but artists like Michael and Lisa Gungor give me hope that there is still creative talent writing corporate worship music. Alternatively calming and stirring, their show at Cornerstone Festival this year was one of my favorites. Favorite Tracks: “Beautiful Things”, “The Earth Is Yours”

Deas Vail – self-titled – (Avg rating: 3.416)
A slight downturn from their previous album, but only a slight one. That’s more a testament of just how good Birds and Cages was, not neccessarilly an indictment on this album. It doesn’t deviate too much from their previous album so there’s not much new ground broken here, but there’s nothing wrong with continuing a good sound. There’s good stuff here and I suspect the more I listen to it the more I will like it. Favorite Tracks: “Pulling Down the Sun” “Bad Dreams”, “Meeting In Doorways”

The Next 5
Josh Garrels – Love and War and The Sea In Between – (Avg rating: 3.4)
Best effort yet by this young unconventional artist. Meandering and ponderous and intelligent. It’s a little long with some tracks that don’t hook me, but when it’s good it’s really good. Favorite tracks: “Ulysses”, “A Far Off Hope”, “Bread & Wine”

Arcade Fire – The Suburbs – (Avg rating: 3.375)
I’m late to the Arcade Fire bandwagon, but here I am. Adriene and I listened to Suburbs a couple times during her business trip to St Simon’s earlier this year, so I’ll always think about that when listening to the album. I’m glad I borrowed the CD from her. Favorite tracks: “Ready To Start”, “Modern Man”, “City With No Children”, “Sprawl II”

Coldplay – Mylo Xyloto – (Avg rating: 3.28)
I love how everyone has such strong feelings about this album and band…except for me apparently. I … like it? I don’t hate it? I don’t love it? I’m kinda ashamed that I love the Rihanna collaboration? Favorite tracks: “Paradise”, “Major Minus”, “Princess of China”

Eisley – The Valley – (Avg rating: 3.25)
I didn’t love this album as much as their first two releases, but it’s still pretty good. It’s not quite as creepy and gothic as their previous stuff and a little less precocious, but that happens with growing up I guess. Favorite tracks: “Smarter”, “Please”,”Ambulance”

The Civil Wars – Barton Hollow – (Avg rating: 3.07)
I wanted to love this album, really I did. It had all the hype and everyone gushed over it when it came out and it’s just ok for me. It feels a little too forced, a little too overdramatic, like they are trying too hard. Favorite tracks: “20 Years”, “I’ve Got This Friend”, “Poison and Wine”

Just missed the cut:
Andrew Peterson – Counting Stars, The Choir – deplumed, House of Heroes – Suburba, Wilco – The Whole Love

Halfway through this year, I was pretty sure it was going to be a bad year. Things were not going well in multiple aspects of my life. Thankfully, autumn arrived and with some changes my outlook on life improved. During the first half of the year, I didn’t do very much socializing and I started to let my job and caring for children start to smother me. I’m such a paradox, I don’t really like doing stuff with people every night, but it’s also emotionally damaging to spend too much time alone. I’ve tried to balance things out a little better in the second half of the year and it has been beneficial.

Raising two three-year olds was not easy this year, but it was a whole lot easier than raising two two-year olds last year and in September they turned four. So far, four has been even better. I hear we are entering the “golden years” for little girls where daddy is their hero and they haven’t become teenagers yet and boys and phones and makeup all become bigger priorities. I hope so. I’m not going to lie, the last years have been hard. Maybe one child would have been easier, but twins have felt like riding out a hurricane. It has gotten steadily easier year after year and I like the trend, but make no mistake, I still haven’t fully recovered from the first couple years. I am still very tired most of the time. We’ve had some fun but I’m hoping for even more fun in the next few years.

I miss some of my big Christmas traditions. I used to go see Over the Rhine or Andrew Peterson in concert, but neither came near Atlanta during Christmas and travelling is not as practical as it used to be. We tried to drive around and look at Christmas lights, but the girls were over it within ten minutes. What they really love most is to put Christmas music on the stereo and dance around the room. Each Christmas has been one of firsts and this is the first year that the girls have started to get a grasp on Advent. The Incarnation is still a little above their minds. They know that Christmas is birthday of Jesus but right now God is somewhere on the same plane at Santa Claus. I don’t want to blow their minds too much, there’s plenty of time for philosophical discussions in years to come.

So, for the time being we’re starting new traditions. Rocking around (quite literally) the Christmas tree, lighting candles, and drinking tea with my little Snow Princesses. Next week I’ll be home alone again and we’ll renew the annual Playstation Smackdown, I’ll rundown my favorite albums of the year, and clean out my office which will no doubt spur nostalgic moments. The year is slowly closing to a good end and we’re going to try and start 2012 as well as 2011 is ending.

The Days Only Become Brighter From Here
December 21, 2011

I’m going to try to post something that I’m thankful for every day in the month of November. Today I am thankful for ALL OF YOU. Thank you for your birthday wishes. I wish I could have a conversation with each of you and thank you personally but for now Facebook will have to do I guess. I feel very loved.

Today I am thankful for the loyalty of Adriene Hodges Holland. No matter what mood I’m in (and it varies greatly), she’s always a constant with how she deals with me. I know I can always count on her when I make tough decisions, even if she doesn’t agree she helps us present a unified front to our children and to the outside world.

Today and I am thankful for my daughter Erin. I’m thankful for my little girl that loves frilly things like bows and dresses but also loves kicking the ball around with her daddy.

Today I am thankful for my daughter Maria Grace. I’m thankful that though she spent the first hour of her life in the NICU, she has grown into a tough little strong-willed girl.

Today I am thankful for Saturdays in the fall. College football and soccer on TV

Today I am thankful for a safe birth for Aaron Manes and Brandi Smith Manes. Congratulations!

Today I am thankful for my parents. I’m thankful that they raised me with love and trusted me enough to give me lots of independence as I grew up. I’m also thankful that they are now grandparents that give us a little time off now and then.

Today I am thankful for my in-laws. I’m thankful that they give us wisdom without meddling in our business. I’m thankful for the vacations we’ve spent with them. I’m especially thankful that they live in a place as scenic as Savannah that makes every trip feel like a vacation.

Today I am thankful for other men that follow God and are honest and open with discussions about what it means to be a follower of Christ, a father, a husband and a leader with humility and love.

Today I am thankful for the diversion of football. I’m thankful for seeing old friends at tailgates. I’m thankful that today is GAMEDAY!

Today I am thankful for veterans and current members of the military serving overseas and here in the States. Thanks for keeping us safe.

Today I am thankful for Saturdays with nothing planned.

Today I am thankful for church and that I live in a place where I am free to worship how and where I choose.

Today I am thankful for music….especially new music. I love discovering new artists, new bands, and new songs.

Today am I thankful for the rare quiet moment in the middle of the day when I can take a break from work, go for a short run, and clear my mind.

Today I am thankful for lunch with my wife.

Today I am thankful for coffee. I could’ve had an IV stuck right into my arm with coffee during the girls’ first two years. I still need a dose every morning.

Today I’m thankful for Jennifer Cartwright and the great job she does babysitting our children!

Today I am thankful for soccer on Saturday mornings.

Today I am thankful for Thanksgiving lunch with my family.

Today I am thankful for three-day work weeks.

Today I am thankful that we are not travelling this Thanksgiving. Looking forward to a quiet holiday at home.

We put our turkey in a cooler outside to soak in the brine and I had a nightmare last night that bears ripped the cooler open an ate the turkey. Today I am thankful that bears did not eat our turkey last night.

Today I am thankful that I am not shopping.

Today I am thankful I am not a Georgia Bulldog.

Today I am thankful that the girls take a Sunday afternoon nap, because daddy sure needs one.

Today I am thankful for 2.5 GB of Christmas music uploaded to my iPod. ‘Tis the Season, chumps!

Today I am thankful that the heat in our house works.

Today I am thankful for a good month. November has given me plenty of opportunities to contemplate what I am thankful for and it is good for my soul to remember that.

I love that during this time of year in the mornings when I open my front door Orion is always directly over our house. It feels like someone is watching over me and my household. I know, that sounds weird. Not stars watching over our house, but the consistency of the same stars, the heavens are unchanging. It’s a comfort in a time when everything seems to be always in fluid motion. The Maker of the stars leaves a least a couple things that we can count on (well, at least for our lifetime.)

My parents rented a cabin in the mountains earlier this month and it was incredible. We built a fire and roasted marshmallows (the girls held them over the fire for about 10 seconds then declared they wanted smores. They wouldn’t even let us set the marshmallows on fire so that they get a crispy black coating. Clearly they need more instruction on camping.) Uncle Clint taught the girls to fish and dad and I played a lot of pool. It was just what the doctor ordered. After a summer that felt brutal and unrelenting, the cool, lazy pace of fall so far has been a welcome change.

That’s of course, not counting football weekends. Sad to say, Georgia Tech’s football season has gone about how I expected with a fast start and more disappointing results now that they are facing more athletic teams. Really though the biggest disappointment of the football season has been all of the noon kickoffs. Tailgating before the game has been some of the rare social moments when I get to see people I don’t see for the rest of the year and there’s not much time for socializing when you arrive on campus at 10:00 AM and you have to be shuffling off to the stadium a couple hours later. With a night game coming this weekend, I’m hoping to reconnect with a lot of old friends at homecoming.

Adriene had a bunch of girlfriends over at the house the past weekend. I tried to stay mostly out of the way, but they were kind enough to share their massive dinner with me and let me in on a couple of laughs. Tonight I’m going to a new Bible study with some old friends. This summer was not very social and at times I felt isolated. I’m an introvert who generally enjoys time by myself, but sometimes I need to be out with a group or I get too myopic, too selfish and this fall is slowly drawing me out of that mindset.

There’s been an explosion of new music in the last couple of months that I’m trying to catch up on. Deas Vail and Quiet Science each released new albums. I heard them play most of the songs at Cornerstone Festival earlier this summer but now I have an opportunity to give them a little more attention. I also finally got on the Wilco bandwagon about three albums too late, but oh well, I’m still absorbing The Whole Love. That’s not even counting all of the free stuff I’ve downloaded from Noisetrade like compilations from Josh Ritter, Jars of Clay, and Andrew Osenga that I haven’t even had a chance to listen to yet. Soon. Also, I just got the new Coldplay album and I’m going to do my best to give it an objective listen without any prejudices. I’m so amused my the hipster backlash against Coldplay and even more amused by the anti-hipster backlash backlash (“they are so mainstream and uncool that they are cool”) I don’t really care about all that, I just care if I like the music, so we’ll see.

With my birthday, Thanksgiving, and Christmas all lining up on the horizon, it’s small surprise that I’m in better spirits these days. I feel like there is still time to say “2011 was a good year” when I look back on it some long time from now.

So, with autumn arriving it’s time to turn a new page and start over. At the end of 2009 I looked back and noticed a lot of bad habits and attitudes had set in and decided it was time to do some personal housecleaning. It’s time to start doing it again.

So here’s to another Fall. Football is already under way and the heat has finally broken. I’m ready for some fun in the mountains with my girls under falling leaves. I’m ready to spend more time with friends. I’m ready to spend more time with my children. I’m ready to spend more time with my family. I’m ready for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and maybe, just maybe working a little more normal schedule.

I haven’t really discussed September 11 with our girls much. I thought of that as they played outside today on this day that feel so eerily the same as 10 years ago. I really didn’t know how to bring up the topic. They asked about all of the American flags that are flying around our town and I told them we were showing how proud we were of people who work for our country. I know I can’t shield them forever from knowing about the scale of evil that man can do, nor do I want them to be naive but part of me wants them to stay blissfully ignorant for just a little longer. We live in a world still fueled by fear (just watch 24 hour news for one day) and I want to teach them to be wise without being afraid. I’m still working on that myself.

Superheroes fun with Flatfoot 56… those planets never had a chance.

Continuing the punk theme… when the power went out across the grounds, it really brought things to a stand-still. But Rodent Emporium didn’t let it stop their fun…they carried on with a generator-powered PA.

Daniel Amos
Fantastic show by a classic band. No messing around, just solid song after solid song ending with one of their favorites.

Norma Jean
So, I’m pretty much not a hardcore fan… at all. But this was a pretty big event, Norma Jean played a surprise show on a tiny generator stage drawing a big crowd. Our fantastic video team did an amazing job documenting the show.

Deas Vail
Spoken word artist Dan Smith of Listener joins the band on stage for a song. I guess Henry Rollins made it cool….

Lauren Mann and The Fairly Odd Folk
One of our own photographers came to Cornerstone with his wife their new band for their first appearance at Cornerstone and played a nice, pleasant show.