07.21.05
Body image….
A thread on the SGB the past couple of days involved us posting our prom pictures for all to see. I posted this pic from my Junior Prom in 1996, and I was taken aback at how small I was back then.
Then, looking down at myself today, I’m suddenly aware of how much weight I’ve put on since that picture. Currently, I weigh close to 70 pounds more than I did at that time. The scary thing is, is although I knew that I’d put on weight, I honestly had no clue how much I’d put on until after it was all there. And then it’s like hell to get it off afterwards (trust me, I’m going through that right now).
We’re taught these days to be comfortable with our body image. But I wonder, is there a point you reach where you’re too comfortable with it? You know, you reach a point where you say “I’d rather be fat and happy than thin and miserable.” Is that a really healthy attitude to have, honestly? What about the health implications of that? I’ve noticed over the past month or so how much WORSE I feel now than I did ten years ago. And, of course, most of that is due to my weight.
So, it boils down to this. I think I got too comfortable with myself. I got married and settled, and decided that I didn’t need to worry about what I put into my mouth, because I didn’t have to worry about catching a husband, being attractive to other men, etc. anymore. But, I need to realize what it is I’m doing to myself by “letting myself go.” That’s not fair to me, nor is it fair to Jeff.
Desperate Housewife Said:
July 22, 2005 at 11:52 am
I think you hit the nail on the head here. I think there needs to be a healthy balance of the two attitudes…Reality is your body is going to change and you have to be ok with that. The emphasis on health I think is the big thing. With ya in the struggle….